Soul Searching.

Just like every sentence – there is a coma and a full stop;

A coma for a short breather, a full stop for an end; perhaps a temporal one.

In this sporadic land, she figures it is best to take a short breather.

She lost herself along the way and is on a search to find herself once again.

It might be the age, it might just be her.

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Don’t worry loves, I will be fine. I shall come back as soon as I can. I promise. But until then, have a beautiful November.

Joyeaux Anniversaire.

I celebrated my twentieth with my dearest boyfriend and he made it absolutely wonderful and memorable. It was definitely keepsake worthy. Then again, what do we both do that isn’t keepsake worthy?

My birthday started off with an influx of text messages, Facebook wall posts and emails at the stroke of midnight and lasted throughout the whole day. Along with Jan, this is what happened in the afternoon:

• He snuggled an envelope into my bag (birthday card! it was so sweet, hehe. i love cards – they mean the most, really);
• We watched The Time Traveler’s Wife;
• Had chicken and waffles for lunch;
• Searched for masquerade masks & my birthday present;
• He bought me three helium balloons (the colors were meant to be – our little secret);
• Walked and shopped a little;
• We went to get my favorite Tiramisu cake from Alexis;
• He bought me three gorgeous roses.

The boy who made it all so magical.

He had to go for his night class after that so he dropped me home. After his class, he came to fetch me and we headed for dinner. I had no clue on where we were going though I could only think of one place. And true enough, we went to that place for dinner. Think dinner by the lake, with fairy lights and soothing music. Oh, not to forget that the food was so awesome. We were both stuffed by the end of the night (midnight actually).

Thank you for such a lovely night, babe. You’re just so amazing. We’ve celebrated each other’s twentieth together and here’s to many more birthdays together. :)

I love you truckloads!

And the other happy things I received;

A lovely watch to replace my stolen one.

Snail mail from the UK and Australia. :)

The tumbler! Finally, a pretty design! And it’s mine, hehe!

Honestly, I’ve never been so blessed with so many lovely things on a birthday before. And I’m so thankful to God for this magical twentieth. This has gotta be the best birthday ever and the most memorable one too. A big thank you to all of you who wished me on my twentieth. It really meant a lot. :) Much love!

Behind Masks.

Love both Nate and Jenny’s mask – something I’m looking for; a metal butterfly mask.

The Psychology Department in uni is having a masquerade ball at the end of the year and I’m pretty ecstatic about it. All the while, it was only thoughts and wants of attending a masquerade ball – but now, it is really happening! How awesome is that? I have not yet confirmed my attendance but I surely do hope I can make it. It’ll be so much fun. Don’t you think?

I was also asked to be a part of the committee – to head the ballroom interior design team. And those who know me well enough would know that I absolutely love interior designing (my first career option) and this is like right on target! I am yet to say yes, though I sorta said a partial yes, due to current workload and responsibilities that are pretty heavy. But yes, I’m too excited to be a part of it.

I’ve been looking for for mask designs and have stumbled upon a few lovely ones. It’s really between a mask with sequins and a feather or a metal mask with glitter. I am yet to find one that I can truly settle on and not get tempted anymore. I found a mask designer though there are some limitations. I’ll have to see how it goes. Else I’ll probably make my own. :)

Some of the masks that I’ve been eyeing…

Too gorgeous! If only I could get my hands on this.

Couple masks ;)

So, what do you think? :)

My dress might be either purple or black. I’m gonna be tailoring my dress, the design is so lovely! – I designed my dress like about a month back, hehe. Yeah, I was excited to tailor a new dress – I love designing (another career option before Psychology, really). But I don’t know what colored mask I should get – black or white? I’m more towards black but it all depends. Hmm, feathered or metal?

Oh such dilemmas.

The Best Fix.

I spoke to the bestfriend today after what seemed to be ages. Needed to speak to her so badly for quite a while now and it was so good. Can’t wait till all my dearest girlfriends come back! I’m counting the days, lovelies.

Close Your Eyes.

“Perfumes are the feelings of flowers.”

- Heinrich Heine; The Hartz Journey

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I’m always excited to see sunshine – they make everything seem bright and beautiful than what the norm would pose. Even when the daily workload weighs you down, a little dose of sunshine would help turn your mood around. It is proven, I promise.

The past two weeks or so have been solely dedicated to me recuperating from a surgery. Well, I’m just glad that I’m pretty much alive and kickin’ right now, as compared to how I was last week. On some days, I’d feel all weak and drained, and on some, just peachy. Even when you’re at home resting, the workload keeps piling and piling – it never stops, even on Sundays. What ever happened to Sundays being the Sabbath when you’re forced to rest and not work?

It’s already Tuesday and I’m looking forward to Wednesday. And on Thursday, I’m going for a little retail therapy with some girlfriends. Can’t wait to see how that works out. I’m sure it’s gonna be much fun, definitely.

Oh my, this year has passed me by too quick. This also happens to be my last week of teenage-hood. November is just around the corner. Uh oh.

Mere Whisperings.

She stood at the front, whispering the same four words over and over again.

“I believe in You.”

And after she walked back, she realized something had changed.

Something had changed.

Just Knowing.

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind.

“Pooh!” he whispered.  “Yes, Piglet?”

“Nothing.” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s paw.

“I just wanted to be sure of you.”

- A.A. Milne

Surrounded By Beauty.

I’ve been surrounded by pretty flowers for the past few days. It’s a lovely sight, I must say. Waking up to such cheery colors does have an effect for the pseudo-gloomy mornings or any day for that matter. Having Anna around definitely helps as well.

On a different note, the thought of having to forgo dancing this Christmas has really dampened my festive spirit this year. I’ve been looking forward to dance since Easter – its my only outlet to dance, only because I don’t have much time to take formal lessons. But now, dancing is a big no-no, well at least until next Easter.

Being homebound without choice, also having present the guilt of being totally jobless at home isn’t a happy thing. I really need to do something. I’ll try starting with mini revisions. Perhaps tonight. Perhaps.

And this reminds me that I need to buy more casual dresses, hehe. Trust me, I’ve got a valid reason for that. ;)

Ooh and there’s a masquerade ball at the end of the year and I love masquerade balls. The whole idea of dressing up in stunning dresses with gorgeously adorned masks, mm-hmm. :)